Saturday, January 16, 2010

Hello hello hello.... is there anybody out there?

Here that echo? LOL! I do! wow, 10 days since I posted last! For shame Cat! I will have an update for you today with a new card creation later today, but for now just letting everybody know I AM still here! And a few developments in my life...read on if you care to know!






Wellll, since I last wrote, so much has happened. REally? It almost seems unreal to me. Let's see...first? If you have been following me for a bit, you know that back in August, I found out about an affair with this little young girl (my daughter's age) that hubby had been having...had the heart attack after that one..NOT blaming the heart attack all on that, but I do believe it was a contributing factor...the stress thing and all, lol. Wellll been working on through that with him, its been hard, but I do know how much I love him and he is starting to convince me that same, lol. Anyways....I find out just last week...well, there is a child involved..maybe...there is one that COULD be his. No blood tests have been run YET, but will be. It's something that HAS to be done. Him thinking its just gonna go away..well, its not. and its an innocent child involved....that is what is so sad. He acts embarrassed about the whole thing, I mean very much so...which I am too....that is one reason I dont post much about it. Another is that HER and her step mom do read my stuff, on here and on facebook, so not saying much. I will not stoop to their level....I will say this much..for some reason, her step mom is concerned about my butt size....and is angry at ME for some reason, rofl. She called me and just went on and on about my "fat azz" sorry, but her words, not mine. ANYways....so here I am again, NOT dealing with this very well, not really. I have CHOSE to stay with him though. You dont just walk away from nearly 30 years of marriage...but I do think I need some...prozac or something, lol!! Ooookay, sooo after that? we find out Wednesday, that his job is no more. URS Corp. lost their contract out there at the army base. I think there is alot involved...lots of lawyers...its been a mess since he went to work there a year and half ago though, we know that much. But the Red River Commerce Park decided not to pick him up as an employee...which we kinda expected that response...thats another long story, but anyways, bottom line, he doesnt have a job now. He is still on their payroll up until the end of this month, as a severance package they said. A 2 week severance package, lol. WOW...ha. He will be able to draw unemployment though, that wont be a problem. Just takes a bit to get the income coming in and its not near as much as he was making. AND we are looking at all options. About moving AWAY from here even. That is what I want to do. This small town is just....more than I can take right now. I was raised here, I KNOW how this town is...I want to GO.

Ok, so that is my life in a nutshell as of right now, LOL! Crazy huh? I think I should sell the movie rights, haha! Wait...I think there already was a movie sorta like this, lmao. I can say this much though. I am so very thankful to have my card making buddies and friends. I HAVE been making cards. I have lots like half finished though...I do that when my mind is bouncing around everywheres...start a card, and jump to another one before I finish! LOL! But it gives my mind some relief...it truly does. And I JUST got my Gina K goodies in the mail yesterday and am just itching to play with them...wow that new Basic Grey, Origins, is GORgeous! :D See ya later with a card!



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13 comments:

Miesje said...

I am sorry that you are having to go through all of that. I will keep you in my prayers. Hang in there - I think I would choose to move too - fresh start etc.

redwasher1 said...

Cat, I think you have to do what's in your heart!You really have had some challenges this past year. Thanks for letting us know and remember life is to short to be miserable! Your in my prayer's. Geri

Brenda said...

Cat I am sorry for what you are having to deal with right now. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I sure hope that 2010 will be a much better year for you.

{Hugs} to you my friend,
Brenda

Mary Anne / MA54K said...

Well my friend, I knew something had to be up with you. You pop in and out but never stick. Life can be meaner than an old coon hound sometimes. It just makes me angry, that it always seems to happen to nice people. Please hang in there and if ya need to cuss, just email me, I can take it!

Betty Neville said...

Hey Cat! I'm sorry that you are going through so much right now. Don't let what other people think even bother you - it's not important. Make sure you take good care of yourself - that IS important especially during stressful times.

Melissa Cash said...

Hi there Cat, sorry to hear you are going through all of that. Take care of yourself, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

P.S. Should I contact the writers of As the World Turns? LOL

Stampin' Pam said...

Ahhh Cat - I had no idea - I knew about YOUR health issues but must have missed the deets on the rest of it. I'm SO SO SO Sorry that you are going through all of this and the loss of the job etc. I know it will sound schmaltzy but try to remember that God just won't give you more than you can handle so stay strong - follow YOUR heart and know that we are all here for you. Big hugs for you girly. Praying for a positive outcome.

Cathy said...

Hey Cat... Sorry to hear that the roller coaster is still giving you a ride. I'm with MaryAnn You need to cuss... you know my email address. If you just need an understanding friend I'm here for that too. Hang in there. Love ya GF

Carol - IL said...

Cat, so sorry about all you've gone through and are going through. I've been there and also chose to stay with mine - as in your marriage, too much time invested. In my case, it was worth staying & working it out. I will keep you in my prayers. Don't let it all get to you...trust me, you do come out much stronger. Lots of {{HUGS}}.

Donna said...

{{{big hugs}}} I know this past year has been rough but you have a good attitude and know you will get through this. I am glad he's acting differently and you both are working at things, but a kid? whoa...so sad to hear that. If the girl doesn't want to keep the baby, John and I would be willing to adopt her/him! ha

Jessica said...

Cat, lots of love and hugs coming from frigid Wisconsin to you in Texas! I've been thinking of you and wanted to let you know that you are an amazing woman - it's the size of your HEART that matters, my friend - and your heart is HUGE with love! I will pray that you will be able to move and get a fresh start somewhere - I know how important that is to you and totally understand. LOVE you!

Deebi27 said...

I have never been on this blog before, but life sends us these darn curve balls to test us? Not nice...Gosh, it's no wonder your head is bouncing. May Dorothy's Good Fairy Glinda come your way and grant you a wish or 2!!!

PS I see some really great art around here...I'm going to follow you!

Laurie in MN said...

Dear Cat,
I had been wondering what you had decided. I am sorry to hear about the possibility of a child.

Hopefully, the S-Mom will direct her energy in a positive direction.

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